So I signed back in to this journal to get rid of a spammy comment and realized that I have not written in this thing in ages.

I wrote a him&her thing last night on the bus back from DC.

I've fallen severely behind on the beneathwords stuff. I'm technically supposed to be working on my script for my final project, but fuck it. I'm gonna try to write another installment tonight instead.

Part of me desperately wants to show it to at least a few people so I can jump up and down and go "LOOK AT ME LOOK AT ME!!!", but the rest of me doesn't. It won't be the same if it's not a secret anymore.

I'll shut up about it now. XD

I'm gonna try to write something every day -- even if it's only a page or so. Even if it's really bad. Just something. I won't ever let anyone see them; it'll just be my own secret collection of stories.

I wrote one tonight, and I like it.

You know, I'm sort of glad I had such an emotional breakdown today. I got a pretty good story out of it, I think. I really poured my heart and soul into this... this story feels like me. It's me on that piece of paper, bare and vulnerable.

Watch everyone have nothing to say about it, ha.

I haven't written in this in a LONG time.

Anyway, I haven't been writing much lately (besides the stuff for Storytelling class), which makes me sad. I've been trying to work on a Sekrit Novel, only I can't come up with a plot. I mostly just want a fictional outlet for my emo, really, but the thing still needs a plot. Oh, well. I'll figure something out.

Still need to write Twilight fic. I feel bad for not having written yet. I will finish it before the year ends, though.

So, the book is all done and edited and for sale. I'll add the link to it in the profile in a couple minutes.

Now I need to write the Zach/Sendhil and Jacob/anybody for the Save Stacie charity auction thing. I'll probably get started on the Zach/Sendhil tonight, since I have an actual idea for it already.

Yay! The editing is done. I actually didn't really change the ending all that much. I added another sentence to Alex's rant about how Mitch going back to his old friends makes Mitch an idiot and a pushover, but that's it. Everything else is more or less the same.

Now I just gotta figure out how to format it for publishing, and also get a job so I can pay eonism for the cover, and I'm all set to start selling it! :D

I've finished editing Chapter 35! Only ten more chapters to go. I hope to finish editing by the end of next week. I think I can do this.

I haven't made any significant alterations to the plot or to any characterizations; I think the biggest change I made was showing how George was snubbing Mitch too, as I kinda forgot about him after the Christmas party. Mostly I've just been cleaning up the sentences, switching things around, adding a couple of little details. Nothing major. I think I need to focus a lot on the ending now -- it just gives a kind of fucked-up message, even though it is SO difficult imagining these guys not being friends. They're just such a unit; I'm gonna hate making them slowly drift apart in the sequels, and then Mitch and Jason's friendship being forever ruined in the third. I dunno. I need to some thinkin'.

Fuck!